A Flower for my Hair

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Conversating.

hello? hey, its me. 

Yeah, I’m in a bit of trouble. I’ve been losing sleep over it. 

Oh, its just I can’t find what I’m looking for.

No, no, not a person, or an object. 

I know I sound crazy, but just hear me out.

I’m looking for my talent. Something that sets me apart.

Yeah I know I know, it’s just I’ve always really wanted to be known for something, you know?

Well, I dont need to be a child prodigy!

I just want to find something I can always depend on. 

Yeah, yeah something that I can always be good at or just something that other people can be amazed at.

NO, I’m not looking for fame. I just want to be recognized.

Haha. No it’s not the same thing!

Well, I consider famous people known by a lot of people they don’t know back. I just want people who do know me to know that I have something great to share with the world.

Wow, I never realized how selfish that sounds. 

Hmmm…

And I’m not just saying this, I’ve been thinking about it. It didn’t come from out of the blue. 

Yeah, I know.

No, really, I know everyone wants a talent! It’s just…

Ok, well school use to be something I could say I was good at. Putting down my GPA was a big boost to my ego. But I lost that…somewhere in the last 2 years. So I’m looking for something else.

Writing too, use to be something. It’s not so much anymore.

Well I know I’m friendly. I know I’ve got great friends and family. I’m living a good life. I’m not trying to complain. I just want to be out of the bottom or middle of the pack for something. Something I could do.

I think I have a problem.

No, no I do. Why do i compare myself to other people SO MUCH? 

Well, I promise to stop. But I have a problem. And it won’t happen overnight.

But I still want a talent.

Oh well, maybe the time isn’t right. Maybe it’s coming. 

Guess we’ll see what happens.